WHERE DID MY TRUE SELF GO?

The end of a year is always a good place to reflect upon where one’s life is at and where it is heading. My problem is that being a thinker is an intrinsic and essential part of who I am . I think too much, too deep, too often. Can’t be helped! When you meditate on things as often and as deeply as I do, you come to realise that when certain thoughts and ideas keep creeping up is because they need to be considered and acted upon, or else they will haunt you and be forever present as painful reminders of your lack of courage and the hope deferred of what could have potentially been a much more fulfilling, purposeful life. There is something in our consciousness, in our spirit that acts like the rudder of our life. We are the ones turning the rudder but ultimately it is most definitely not us at the helm, or at least that is my own personal experience. I am under no false illusion that I direct my steps, but at the end I would like to think that I was able to at least recognise and act wisely, intuitively on those moments in life when I encountered a junction on the road or when a seemingly accidental curve ball was thrown my way to force me into jumping one way or another, to make a choice, to push forward without fear or coercion.

Perhaps what I have been experiencing in these last few months is nothing more than a mid-life crisis; a point in one’s life when you take stock and ponder on all the what-ifs, all the alternative paths one could have taken or may yet still need to take. It is a cliché to state that in the midst of investing one’s life in raising a family and cultivating a marriage with solid roots; in living sacrificially by putting everyone else’s happiness before your own, one can easily loose their identity and simply be identified as the link that keeps different chains together, be it family, work or relationships. Cliché or not, I have most definitely found this is true in my own life.

The recurrent thought or voice echoing on my head as of late has been saying: “Stop hiding behind what you are good at, what is familiar, and go on the journey to discover what it is you are destined to be, what it is you are meant to excel at. Go on a journey of self-discovery. Put for once in your life yourself first and discover what it is that you were made for, what makes your heart sing. I have spent so many years putting everyone else’s needs before my own that I am beginning to feel that my voice, the essence of who I am has got lost in the midst of life’s demands; my voice has been drowned out by those whose voices matter most or so I thought.

I know this will sound heartless and self-absorbed, but I am all about being honest to others and primarily to myself, and so I call it as I see it. Yes, I must say it: I would like to wake up tomorrow and not feel the ongoing, relentless, unforgiving burden of being a mum, a wife, a sister, a daughter or a friend. I want to know what it feels like to be truly free, free from a heavy sense of responsibility, free from the yoke of religion, education, history, expectations and promises, free from the oppressive sense that our life is all panned out for us; from the predictability of what is to come; the barrenness of what will never be. I long for my chains to be broken so that I can walk forward with only one thought in mind: How can I best use my personality, my knowledge and my gifting to be able to claim when it is all said and done that I have lived my life fully, without reservations, fear or regrets; that I have always been true to myself, pursued my truth and no one else’s?

Every fibre of my being assures me that I was meant for more than what I am today, than what I have achieved so far, and I am not talking about a reputation, fame or material success. I am referring solely to a place where my life will finally reach its purpose and full meaning; a point where I can assuredly say: “I have arrived”; a point where there will be no more internal turmoil, wrestling or strife. Perhaps such a place doesn’t exist, but why then be tormented by a void within that no one and nothing can fill? I know I am not alone in feeling this. When you move in Christian circles, you are told that only God can fill that void, but God’s presence is ever beating in my life and yet that void, that call to something more meaningful not only remains but rings louder and clearer each time.

I do not regret the path I have chosen, far from it, but I do not want to resent it because it stopped me from finding out who I am besides Mercedes the mother, the daughter, the sister, the wife. There is so, so much potential in all of us to do extraordinary things. I do not want to short-change myself by hiding behind what it is I am expected to be doing instead of braving it and embarking on the quest of finding what I was truly made to be. I know that longing I feel burning inside of me is a seed that has been planted in my soul. I did not put it there. To ignore that latent undeniable inner call that incites us to discover what is yet to be achieved, what is yet to be fulfilled is to clip the wings of a bald eagle and expect it to still dazzle us with its majestic presence and skill.

There must be more than this. I know there is!

If God is good, if God is love, why does he allow so much pain and suffering in this world?

This is a question Christian people are often asked by those who cannot comprehend, those who will not accept that God and so much evil and suffering in the world can be two co-existing realities.  It is also a question Christians often ask ourselves, and one for which we do not have an answer, not really.

Below is a video of a sermon by Pastor Britt Merrick, the pastor of Reality Church in California, whose journey I have been following closely for the last two years or so.  His testimony caught my attention a long time ago as I learnt that his daughter, who is now 8 years old, was battling cancer, a cancer which has shown its ugly face on four separate occasions over the last four years and which at present seems to be winning the battle.

Pastor Merrick and his family have recently travelled back from a long stay in Israel where their daughter received various pioneering treatments.  This is his very first sermon at the church he leads in California since he got back, so it is emotionally charged for that reason but primarily because in it he shares his own testimony of God’s grace shining through what comes across as absolutely desperate times in his life and that of his family.

Britt has and continues to be on a very challenging journey of discovery and revelation as I see it where God is showing him some wonderful though very laborious insights into who He is and what He has promised us.  Britt tackles the very thorny question of “Why does God allow evil, pain and suffering in the lives of innocent, good people, particularly children; why if God is love, does He allow so many disasters and tragedies to affect the lives of those He himself created in His own image?”

This is for me one of the most beautiful, sincere, heartfelt and plausible explanations and answers to this very challenging question I have ever heard, and having wrestled with this very question myself, I have to say Britt’s message has finally silenced the turmoil within my own soul and laid this issue to rest in my own heart and I am sure the heart of anyone who has become a part of his most amazing journey through pain and suffering and above all through grace.

I pray this message will bless you as much as it blessed me and I thank God for allowing Britt and his family to have access to some of the most wonderfully hidden but at the same time so plain to see pieces of revelation of God’s word I have ever had the privilege to hear.

UPDATE

Since writing this I found out today 18.02.13 that Daisy Love passed away yesterday. My heart and prayers are with her family and with her.  They have all been a source of inspiration to my own faith and I trust their witness will fuel my faith for years to come.  May God bless them all! –

Our Dear America – Where do you go from here? by Wolfgang and Mercy Simson

I don’t often do this, but the nature of the following article pushes me to publish it here today.  The comments left on the website which originally published it www.revivalschool.com are even more enlightening than the article itself.

There are so many in North America today who are deeply grieved by the result of the Election.  Indeed, I have personally heard from some who are immersed in utter despair about it and see nothing but darkness ahead.

I would urge my friends Randi and Dave in particular to read this article and specially the comments left on that site. Here is a great comment from someone called Marty which struck a chord with me and the sentiment behind my recent posts:

That was truly a prophetic article, I have been saying much the same thing to everyone I know. Most of the ” intercessory” prayer about this election was from a “bless this country and deliver us from Obama” mentality when it should have been “Lord deliver this nation from sin and our warped priorities”. We must welcome Gods judgements as acts of divine love. We must also start seeking the mind of Christ on all issues, and not make false idols out of what we perceive as deliverance. There will be no deliverance until and unless we repent and seek hard after God. No good parent would ever let a child go through life the way we expect God to let the Church live in this country. Now will this nation and especially the Church accept this chastisement from God and really repent and seek Gods will and way?

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OUR DEAR AMERICA – Where do you go From Here?

by Wolfgang and Mercy Simson.

Today, Obama has been re-elected; all the efforts of many Christian leaders, prayer movements, “prophets” and “concerned Americans”

who have lobbied, written appeals, articles, books, letters – some have even done films – to warn not to vote for him have come to nothing. Many of them have behaved as if the future of the Kingdom of God is at stake. Well, it is not.

Can we, as foreigners who dearly love you as a people, say a few words into this situation? Because it is evident to us that God has a clear plan with your nation. But many don t seem to see it, and therefore run the danger of fighting the wrong fight, wasting precious time and resources, and even endlessly call upon God to do what he just will not do.

The German weekly Der Spiegel, kind of a German Time Magazine, has a cover picture of Uncle Sam in bed, titled, The American

Patient: The decline of a Great Nation. We think this is a prophetic picture. As your friends, we know, acknowledge and admire that America has had a great past. But how will your future look like?

God chastises whom he loves because he knows: pride will come before the fall, and humbleness and brokenness is the only condition he responds to. We personally sense we need to tell you: the destiny of your nation is in God´s hands, not yours. It is not at all about Obama or Romney, it is about God using all the nations in the world according to his global and unchanging plans. Did you ever allow the thought that God in his sovereignty is using Obama like a pawn on his chessboard to humble the US as a nation because he wants to show his grace to a nation gone completely self-sufficient? A nation that is so full of independence, individualism, nationalism and trusting a greed- and fear-based economy that there may be only one way open to heal it from its idolatry and re-align itself with the Kingdom of God: a crisis beyond anything that America has ever seen?

In 2008, God has been challenged by a man standing up in public, preaching to the cheers of a huge crowd: “Yes we can!” We watched it; we saw the tears of excitement in the eyes of the people; the statements were received as if coming from the Messiah himself, and the electoral rallies had all the flavor of a religious revival. “Yes, we can” is the exact opposite of the King of kings saying: “Without me, you can do nothing!”

If God is the one who “deposes kings and raises up others” (Dan 2:21), does it really matter what are the names of the current puppets set in place by God that advance both the New World Order and the Kingdom of God? Neither Herod, Pilate nor Caesar were truly important for the development of the Kingdom. That is exactly why Kingdom people do not play in the Second League, but the First, the one that matters. The one that puts the Kingdom first, and everything else – including their own nation – second.

The problem of the current commotion and insecurities arises when even the people that call themselves after God keep confusing the Kingdom of God with the United States of America. And when that happens, especially through Christians with a public voice, then we have truly lost all perspective of the coming Kingdom of Jesus Christ and the predictions he has made that will precede his coming.

America is being publicly humbled by God; and he is going to use Obama – and those after him – to further advance his agenda that will lead all nations to kneel before that one true King Jesus very soon. If any nation wants to become a tower that reaches up to high heaven, it will be humbled by a God who will not share his glory with people relying on their own strength.

America, where do you go from here? What does this mean for you? The future is going to be very, very rough. Your securities will vanish, the economy will go down, the education system will become even worse, the streets more dangerous, the churches even more divided, the youth even more disillusioned – unless there is a true movement that abandons all those idols mentioned above, and radically repents, makes a radical alignment with the King of the Kingdom of God and his constitution, live the Law of Christ in all areas of life, first and foremost in the areas of sex, money, power and how we “do church”. This is a defining moment for you as a nation. You could go down, as the German journalist of `Der Spiegel´ predicted. Or, America could be literally re-invented by Kingdom people who are ready to implode the prevailing myths about America’s greatness, and replace it by God´s greatness.

The King has even greater things purposed and would fulfill those purpose IF those who call themselves after Jesus the King, would turn away from their self-made religion, self-made churches and religious factions, self-made visions of success, and their self-made, harmless God.

Can we lovingly but urgently call you back at this hour to begin and initiate a movement to reposition and repatriate yourselves into the eternal Kingdom, by submitting yourself not only in theory but also in practical deeds to Jesus the King, starting to obey the King and his liberating decrees in all the areas that count? You might even want to write a declaration of dependence on God and each other, because by idolizing anything else before and over God, you will become illegal aliens in the country that counts, where we all are called to have our home: the Kingdom, the one place where our true citizenship, nationality and allegiance lies (Phil 3:20). This is the only one country that will not be shaken, as it has an unchanging King.

If there is any way that we can help you in this great challenge and task – we want you to know we will.

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HERE IS THE ROOT OF THE ROOT AND THE BUD OF THE BUD….

This post is inspired by the desire to share with you all a timeless song with a timeless message:

When you feel your world is spiralling out of control, when you feel time is beyond your grasp, when you fret because there are not enough hours in the day, when you wallow in self-pity, when your life is all about the future and making plans, when you feel there cannot be a God who allows such suffering, pain and evil, when you feel hard done by and taken for granted, when you are downcast, when…..when….when….

Remember to stop, breath and simply re-learn to live each second of your life as if it was the last, remember those moments will never come back and what is the point of poisoning and wasting the ones left with self-pity, regret, fear, hatred and resentment? Cherish what you have, no matter how little or unvalued, no matter how infrequent or even more so when too abundant that you end up taking for granted the little details of what makes your life worthy and worth-living in God’s eyes.  You do have a purpose, you are here for a reason.  Find out what are those things in your life God has given you as gifts, and then love on them, cherish them, sacrifice for them with your every breath, and ALWAYS, ALWAYS remember they are gifts and we are to be grateful for every single one of those and we are to honour the Gift Giver by simply never neglecting them or by developing an attitude of entitlement in our hearts where Enough is never Enough.

Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud: it is in living for others and by a daily practice of self-sacrifice that Your Life will take on its TRUE meaning. It does the soul good to often be last, to not have a turn, to go unheard, to  go unnoticed, to become invisible, to accept we know nought, to suffer pain and rejection.  It is then and only then that one can clearly and brightly see the power of God in one’s life. It is then and only then that our hearts are in a place to be able to acknowledge where we sit in this awe-inspiring universe. It is then and only then that Faith has a chance.  It is then and only then that God places in your hands the best gift of all: being able to better another person’s life by simply becoming the stepping stone upon which they stand so that they too can learn all these things and gain the right perspective, a purpose and a glorious future.

Didn’t you almost have it all?

I am deeply saddened today by the news of Whitney Houston’s death yesterday. Her music filled many of the happy and sad memories I have as a young girl growing up.  Indeed her voice was often the backdrop to many lonely times filled with insecurities and fears but also to many joyful experiences with my most loved ones. As a young girl I grew up to admire her God-given talent, her elegance and beauty, never knowing that though to the world she had it all, she lacked the one thing without which life becomes a constant struggle, a pool of despair, an impossibility.  She lacked inner peace and the ability to not lean in her own understanding, but in the knowledge that despite our frailty and weaknesses, God is able, in the knowledge that though at times we may feel like we do have it all and are self-sufficient, apart from God we can do nothing, without his grace and mercy, we are nothing.

Years ago my husband and I had the privilege of seeing her live in concert in London and she was everything I ever imagined her to be and more, though even then it was apparent that behind the glamour and the success, laid dormant much pain, sadness and self-doubt.

Dear Whitney,

May you finally rest in peace. May the Lord bless you and keep you.  You were a shooting star who shone bright and whose journey was brief but memorable nonetheless.  You will be missed and remembered.

Here she is performing my favourite song by her.

Amongst all the doom and gloom, a wonderfully uplifting and encouraging word for 2012

It is hard not to be affected by the constant reminder of how bad things truly are all around us.  Whilst we must recognise the importance of raising awareness and becoming aware ourselves of some of these plights in order to take action and responsibility for the things we can do to improve such situations, we must also be very aware of how the devil uses such negativity and doom and gloom in order to throw us off course and to burden us with fear, anxiety and a sense of chaos which depletes our faith reserves in an instant if we let it, and obstructs the open airwaves to worship our God in truth and in spirit every single day.

It is for this reason that this morning I want to offer you someone else’s revelation about the things to come in the hope that it will retrieve to you the perspective one needs in order to see the bigger picture behind the apparent sense of inevitability and helplessness.

May you see the light amongst all the darkness when you read these wonderfully inspired words.

Refreshing & Renewing

by Priscilla Van Sutphin

January 16, 2012

“ I’m taking many of you into times of repentance and deeper healing to finish My work in you in preparation for awakening at hand. Do not be surprised at accentuated emotions hitting you. I am causing to come to the surface anything hidden down in your heart. All unbelief and fears, all anger or resentments, all jealousies, or rejection and all manner of other offenses will be removed if you ALLOW Me. I want you to come near and be in My Presence, for a willing heart and worship will be all it takes to get you to a place of humility where I can confront what you haven’t wanted to look at in yourselves, or already know but haven’t been able to get free of it.
The season has changed, so don’t expect disappointment. EXPECT healing and deliverance when in My presence ! Expect things to change. Praise Me when they do and testify of My great mercy, for I am pouring out great GRACE in this hour and a vengeance against the enemy is in progress. He thinks he’s had the upper hand, but in this hour I will pour out DOUBLE grace to anyone who comes and is willing to allow me to look into your heart, and see, and touch. It is a new hour ! I am doing a NEW THING. It is springing forth NOW. I am arising in your hearts NOW.
Where you have been discouraged at lack of deliverance and healing in your loved ones, your children who have gone astray, and been held captive by the enemy, KNOW that I AM ARISING with GRACE, and LOVE to pour out in them. I AM an experience, and I will lose REVELATION that they will know Me for themselves. Do not be unbelieving. EXPECT Me to do something supernatural in this hour.
Those that have been ostracized by the church will find their niche in associations with others who will accept you and protect you, and appreciate the gifts I have put in you. I am working on MY WHOLE BODY. So do not run with skepticism or suspicion in your hearts. Run with expectation of reversals and turn arounds. For I am causing many who misunderstood you to repent of their wickedness, or neglect and criticism, or jealousies to turn and making them new. I need a prepared and unified army. Thus I am pouring out DOUBLE GRACE and cleansing My threshing floors. I am removing all dead wood, and the sword of the LORD will do what cannot be removed by kindness, and mercy.
Those who resist will be most sorry. So don’t focus on others. Focus on your own lives, and rout the little foxes that spoil the vine. Give ME what you are ashamed of. Give ME all your concerns, and proclaim your desire to be free, and watch to see that I WILL bring My Spirit to do the work in you that is needed to restore your life, and refresh you.
I will make your words like apples of silver in settings of gold. I will show you how to be kind to the ungrateful and those who have belittled and underestimated you. Do not struggle to make a name for yourself. How do you know oh man, if I have not kept you hidden for your own protection, for many will go into bondage under persecution in the days ahead. Many will die for the sake of the gospel. Do not struggle to be seen. KNOW THAT I SEE, and that is enough. Forsake all selfish ambition that comes from lack of recognition and rejection. Lay everything that is offense on the altar like Abraham, and rest in ME, and I will lift you up when it is time. TRUST ME with your life COMPLETELY!
I know many of you are wanting to do more, seeing all the need. But I am big enough to do it all Myself if I want. PRAY, and don’t strive at anything. I am WITH you! I am IN you. So allow ME to nurture your heart, and lead you in the way I HAVE ESTABLISHED since I knew before you were born what I would do with you. I know the choices you will make ahead of time. So stop trying to figure everything out, and allow me to guide you into paths of righteousness, and paths of grace, and paths of peace and love, and allow ME to guide your life in the direction I’ve planned for you.
Trust Me when I say the time is NOW, when I will bring to fruition all that I’ve told you already for your life. The glory will clear away all the confusion, or mystery in time, as you REST in My presence and quiet yourself in Me. All will become crystal clear, if you will but REST, and TRUST Me to show you what you need now. Cling to Me beloveds, come away with ME and listen to what I want to say. I am waiting for you.”
Isa 30:15-16 NKJV For thus says the Lord God, the Holy One of Israel: “In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.” But you would not, 16 And you said, “No, for we will flee on horses” —
Therefore you shall flee! And, “We will ride on swift horses” — Therefore those who pursue you shall be swift!
Prov 17:1 NKJV Better is a dry morsel with quietness, Than a house full of feasting with strife.
Isa 32:17-19 NKJV 17 The work of righteousness will be peace, And the effect of righteousness, quietness and assurance forever. 18 My people will dwell in a peaceful habitation, In secure dwellings, and in quiet resting places, 19 Though hail comes down on the forest, And the city is brought low in humiliation.

CHRISTIANS NEED TO GET BACK TO BASICS: LEARNING TO BE LIGHT IN DARK PLACES.

Nick Vujicic’s latest video on his website Life without Limbs (http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/) has really just spoken to me and I am sure to anyone who watches it. I encourage you to do so.
As a person who has victims of suicide within my own family, I was deeply touched by the message in this video. I often ponder about what extreme of loneliness and despair must a human being experience to prefer death to life. It hits me right in the gut when I think about it, but what really turns my stomach is the possibility of having ignored God’s still small voice asking me to be that light in a dark place and having ignored that stir within my spirit. Doing nothing is a choice most of us make every single day, every single hour without giving it a second thought, and yet the consequences of our indifference are so massive and final.

This video also touched me on a personal level because my husband and I started the “Light in the Darkness” initiative three years ago to provide food parcels to the homeless and families in need in our area. To date we have donated via our local branch of the Salvation Army way over 700 food parcels to individuals and families who for the most part are in that dark place with no hope, no respite, and no future. Interestingly, when we first set up the initiative we called it “Help to Feed the Homeless”, but a good friend of mine pointed out to me years later that seeing as we no longer provided food parcels to the homeless but also to families in any kind of need, it was fitting to give the initiative a new name which would reflect and incorporate all those whom we have helped. Two minutes later I was praying whilst having a shower and I asked God to suggest to me a new name which would define this initiative as He saw it. Immediately, the words “light in the darkness” came to me and ever since that day I have been constantly coming across media, videos, testimonies, music and Christian messages which speak of being light in the darkness.

I believe in this hour God is calling us all to simply be that light in the darkness, to simplify our well-meant enterprises in His name and to get back to basics: to help those who cannot help themselves, to bring joy and hope to those who have none, to share our resources and blessings with those who have nothing, and to simply BE ambassadors of Jesus Christ to the world, as Nick suggests.

Please watch the video and as you do, ask the Holy Spirit to show you in which dark place you can shed the light of Jesus Christ you carry within. Remember, you may not get to see or hear about the effect your words, actions or even attitude may cause in another human being but simply trust that when you feel that nudge, you have been chosen to act on it for a very important reason.

As I write about the simplicity God is calling His people to in terms of how to be light and salt in the world today, I also want to share with you a prophetic message published today by a lady whose prophetic words I have been following now for a very long time, long enough to know she speaks God’s heart. I hope it blesses you as much as it has blessed me.

Crunch Time by Priscilla Van Sutphin (http://ft111.com/priscilla.htm)
Nov 18th 2011

Crunch Time

The interval of time immediately before a project is due, when it becomes apparent that the schedule has slipped and everyone is going to have to work like dogs to try to complete the project in time. Crunch time usually occurs during the period between the next-to-last scheduled milestone (prior to which everyone was able to delude themselves that the schedule had NOT slipped) and the final deadline for delivery. During crunch time, workers are in crunch mode. Prevalent in the software industry, but used elsewhere as well.

“We’ve got three weeks left to complete six weeks worth of work. Looks like we’ll be living on take-out for a while.”
Definition of CRUNCH TIME a critical moment or period (as near the end of a game) when decisive action is needed
Mark 4:16-20 NKJV

16 These likewise are the ones sown on stony ground who, when they hear the word, immediately receive it with gladness; 17 and they have no root in themselves, and so endure only for a time. Afterward, when tribulation or persecution arises for the word’s sake, immediately they stumble. 18 Now these are the ones sown among thorns; they are the ones who hear the word, 19 and the cares of this world, the deceitfulness of riches, and the desires for other things entering in choke the word, and it becomes unfruitful. 20 But these are the ones sown on good ground, those who hear the word, accept it, and bear fruit: some thirty-fold, some sixty, and some a hundred.”

Mark 13:14-20 NKJV

The Great Tribulation

(Matt 24:15-28; Luke 21:20-24)

14 “So when you see the ‘abomination of desolation,’* spoken of by Daniel the prophet,* standing where it ought not” (let the reader understand), “then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. 15 Let him who is on the housetop not go down into the house, nor enter to take anything out of his house. 16 And let him who is in the field not go back to get his clothes. 17 But woe to those who are pregnant and to those who are nursing babies in those days! 18 And pray that your flight may not be in winter. 19 For in those days there will be tribulation, such as has not been since the beginning of the creation which God created until this time, nor ever shall be. 20 And unless the Lord had shortened those days, no flesh would be saved; but for the elect’s sake, whom He chose, He shortened the days.

The voice of the Lord…

“Where are you going oh sons of men ? Where are you going ? What are you pursuing, that keeps you away from your Lover ? I ask you, am I not enough for you ? At times I feel like a scorned lover, who is longing for her husband but he is too busy with business as usual, to notice that she has changed her clothing, and prepared a special meal, just so they could eat it together.

In the midst of turmoil there will not be the time to make important decisions with calmness unless you get your instructions from ME ahead of time. I tell you that time with ME is never wasted. I am the Living Word and knowing the Word is good. It is My love letter to you. But I want you to know me. It is not good enough to know your wife oh husband, or for you oh wife to know your husband by only what is history written down. It is important for intimacy if you KNOW him or her; to know their heart, their thinking, their hopes and aspirations, their preferences, what they like for dinner, what they smell like after a shower. You may laugh, but a wife doesn’t only want a husband to just service her sexually, and go off and busy himself the rest of the time. That would only build resentment.

Thus I say to you, COME AWAY MY BELOVEDS and seek My face for what you are to do in this hour, for tumult is at the door, disruptions and disasters are waiting to manifest. Evil intent in the heart of the wicked is being realized as you sleep. Arise and shine for your time has come and it’s crunch time for knowing My heart and what I intend for you. I am preparing you, readying you for your destiny. Destiny is opening it’s doors right now, and there are jobs, opportunities being presented in this hour for full time and part time positions. Some of you will have dual roles, one foot in business and one foot in spreading the Kingdom. Many of you will be conscripted into service through disasters and troubles. Violence is growing so diligence must also grow in your hearts towards time with ME. Take communion with ME, all the more as you see the time approaching it says, so

Come away, and seek Me with all your heart, like when you first grew to love Me.

Take time to strengthen your inner man, and to rest and listen to My heartbeat, as John did, laying his head upon My chest. John was just a teenager when I knew him here on earth, he was like a son to me, and he never stopped leaning his head on my chest to get direction for which way to go. I want you DEPENDENT on Me, not independent of Me.

Many still are going their OWN way, instead of My way. I have opened doors for some, so that you can be aligned with others who will work together with you in conjunction. The church MUST CHANGE it’s direction. It is headed towards a spiritual Armageddon without preparing the flocks for what is to come. You must pray their eyes be opened, and hearts changed to accept MY instruction for how to do this end times plan. The face of the church is changing, and the church must also change it’s ways of doing church.

Persecution is already planned, yet people are going on blithely without understanding the times they are in. Awakening is at the door. The people in the streets are going to see mighty wonders, but the opposition is also strong and will come in like a flood trying to drown what I loose. You must be prepared to be more fluid, and flexible in how you do church. Buildings are safe only for a short time more. But when awakening comes full force, it will only be a short while before the enemy raises his army to crush it through persecution and mayhem.

Arise and shine for your LIGHT has come, and the glory of the Lord is risen upon you. Men will come to your light, and Kings to the brightness of your shining. YOU WILL MANIFEST MY GLORY like no other generation before you. Don’t you understand what I have been preparing you for ? All the tests and trials have been to soften your hearts that you could love even those who will persecute you, who will think they are doing Me a favor.

The religious spirits are even now trying to allure my bride and suck her into their web of deception, but I have made you strong and discerning that you would recognize a snake from a fawn. Come away beloveds, and listen to MY voice. Quiet your hearts and minds from all the daily violence and corruptions on the news, and find your peace in time with ME. Let me soothe your hearts and minds, and strengthen you on the inside, that you can go forth as my warhorses in battle array. “

Zechariah 10
Restoration of Judah and Israel
10 Ask the Lord for rain in the time of the latter rain.*

The Lord will make flashing clouds; He will give them showers of rain,

Grass in the field for everyone.

2 For the idols* speak delusion; The diviners envision lies, And tell false dreams; They comfort in vain. Therefore the people wend their way like sheep; They are in trouble because there is no shepherd.

3 “My anger is kindled against the shepherds, And I will punish the goatherds. For the Lord of hosts will visit His flock, The house of Judah, And will make them as His royal horse in the battle.

4 From him comes the cornerstone, From him the tent peg, From him the battle bow, I will bring them back, Because I have mercy on them.

They shall be as though I had not cast them aside; For I am the Lord their God, And I will hear them.

7 Those of Ephraim shall be like a mighty man, And their heart shall rejoice as if with wine. Yes, their children shall see it and be glad;

Their heart shall rejoice in the Lord.

8 I will whistle for them and gather them, For I will redeem them;

And they shall increase as they once increased.

9 “I will sow them among the peoples, And they shall remember Me in far countries; They shall live, together with their children, And they shall return.

10 I will also bring them back from the land of Egypt, And gather them from Assyria. I will bring them into the land of Gilead and Lebanon,

Until no more room is found for them.

11 He shall pass through the sea with affliction, And strike the waves of the sea: All the depths of the River* shall dry up. Then the pride of Assyria shall be brought down, And the scepter of Egypt shall depart.

12 “So I will strengthen them in the Lord, And they shall walk up and down in His name,” Says the Lord.